WOW!

So I read my blog from yesterday! Seemed a bit nuts didnt I???? Yesterday was very emotional.  I had my first interview about my little man, and let me tell y'all something, I felt like it was January 22,2010 again.  I felt the physical pain that I felt the day I found him. I am pretty sure I know what a broken heart feels like. I am picking up the pieces of mine, but occasionally I drop a piece. I have put on a brave smile for a year, but now it's time to share my story and reach out!! I was on FB one afternoon and I saw this event about, "Wearing a bow for Maddie".  My first though was oh poor baby must be sick.  I clicked on the link and started reading Kellie's blog.  I sat in my office and read and cried.This woman was feeling my pain.  I hurt for her.  Damnit, this is not fare.  I was sad and mad at the same time.  Wait, I am supposed to be strong and smile.  I am ok.  I am a strong woman.  That's what everyone was telling me and I kind of felt guilty.  I would smile in their faces and cry myself to sleep at home.  I sent Kellie a message and she quickly responded.  I was offering my shoulder for her to cry on.  I didn't want her to do what I had been doing.  I wanted her to mourn.  She would text at random times and I would always try to have my phone to respond quickly.  Then there was one day where I just broke down. I couldn't keep this act up.  I was hurting.  I went to sleep knowing my baby died and my first thought when I woke up was my baby died.  Kelly became my shoulder.  I took her Thursdays and she took my Fridays.  Maddie passed on Thursay, and Tyler on Friday. So here I am. Marisa. Still hurting. My new friend Kellie is my inspiration.  So sit back, relax and follow me on this journey of healing.  I am pretty candid, so dont be shy!

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Peace, Love and Lady bugs and frogs,

Marisa